Blowing hot and cold

Blowing hot and cold. That's what I'm feeling nowadays. Since I'm going to get my period soon, that's why my mood is swinging pretty bad. And for sure, I became more sensitive and my paranoia became more excessive. Yeah I do have paranoia. A terrible paranoia, to be exact. I hate this kind of feeling. I hate it when I'm going to get my period. The funny thing is, when I'm having my period, I don't feel this kind of thing, such as mood swings or very sensitive toward things and became more paranoia than ever. That is weird. People usually felt the opposite.

Everything just irritates me. Like, literally everything. Even the small things irritate me. Especially, that person. That person is just getting on my nerves. That person is such a braggart seriously. That person thinks that s/he is the best person ever and thinks that s/he is the one with the tons of knowledge while s/he's not! That is so annoying and seriously drivin' me nuts. I mean, people were like amused with that person and thought that s/he is the best one and so on so on. No, I'm not being jealous nor envy with that person. You all might think that 'Aww, you're saying that stuff just because you're jealous!' , well it's not. Seriously, that person is just being such a braggart which is annoying, while I know that I'm the one who knew about it well than that person. It's just that, people overrated that person and underrated me. Pity.

I mean how could a person like that was being head over heels by lots of people. No, I'm not envy toward that person. It's just doesn't make sense. Those people were just to exaggerate it and too captivated with that person. People too engrossed with that person. And, no, you're not that good please. But the thing that irritates me the most was that you being such a braggart. Dang, I know that I knew it better but yet you're being such a braggart and you made other people fascinated by you, while, no you're not that fascinating. So please, don't be such a hideous braggart, will you? Thank you very much.

That's why because of my mood swings, everything just irritated me. Just with a tiny thing, it could blow my mood. My entire mood. Perfect isn't it? Plus, my excessive paranoia. Gawd, why do I have to be so paranoid like this. But somehow, I'm being thankful for being such a paranoid because I can feel other's feelings or such things better than the others.